I dont live there anymore

No Matter how hard the past, you can always begin again (borrowed from Buddha)

Don’t judge me by my past…I don’t live there anymore…

My Life was an open book..something that I was proud of

I assumed others around me would be too.

And I could trust them…but none did- Lesson No.1

So I don’t live there anymore…the closed books are left behind…

No more close to me

My life was an open book..I liked being that

But my weaknesses were taken advantage of...

And they were targeted, rather than embrace the goodness on the other side of me

So I don’t live there anymore…I will not let such negative minds into mine

They Stay away from me

My life is a new book…with a new cover and feel

Its changed…with illustrations, positive thoughts, and a new confidence

It has few readers, but Im happy with the number..

It was never the number, but the quality of the numbers

I now live here….with readers whom I call my extended family…

2011+1

Another year passes by…A very troubled year ! the year of ailments and mental tensions….2011 taught me a lot of things  that the yester years could not…

Simple things…like, Health is wealth……. difficult realisations that beauty in the eyes of the beholder is mostly skin deep ( I completely disagree with the proverb) and a renewed realisation that whatever happens ….your family stays with you….

The year also taught me to accept things as they come (although it was not easy), the year was the biggest in terms of my patience being tested, and I guess I succeeded in coming out sane.

I have finally started to feel comfortable in UAE, its gonna be my home for at least a few years now, and I have learnt to like the mix of cultures and languages, the traditions, its just another way of seeing life, or rather experiencing.

Now I look forward to 2012….A very exciting year according to the Mayan calendar…when the 13th b’a’ktun gets completed…the year the world awaits to witness a major change….And I hope for some major achievements, as I yearn to learn new things, be it cooking, general knowledge or career. I want to enjoy simple things, and be of help to others. I want to get back to reading, a habit that I lost in the last year. As my wishlist just climbs the ladder, I also pray and hope that the world finds peace, and people around me are able to appreciate life better.

Enough of my verbal nonsense…Back to the four letter L.I.F.E, which does not fail to surprise me, always!!

My ‘TIME’

(a small change made to the quite acclaimed song of Pink Floyd to describe my current status)

Weekdays:
Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
I fritter and waste the office hours in an off hand way
Kicking around on a piece of training material in the office
Waiting for someone or something to show me the way

Weekends:
Tired of lying in the bed and watching TV all the time
I am young and life is long and there is time to kill today
And then one day i realise ten years have got behind me
No one told me when to run, and I missed the starting gun

Dreams:
And I run and I run to catch up with the old days, but its sinking
And racing around to come up behind me again
The memories are the same in a relative way, but I’m older
Shorter of breath and one moment closer to the end of the dream

Life:
Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to halt or half a page of scribbled blogs
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the only way
The time is gone, my song is over, thought Id something more to say

The best part of all:
Home, home again
I like to be at home when I can
And when I come home, after the long travel
Its good to relax my bones beside my mom’s arms
Far away across the streets
The tolling of the church bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells.